Thursday, March 19, 2015

Back at Work

So yeah, that's my new office.  Hot damn.  And today I spent the whole day there while someone else took care of my kids, and we all survived.  This transition has been a bitch.

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Hunger Strike

About 18 months ago I thought, "I'm home all day, why the heck aren't I making bread?"  So, I started, and for the last year and a half the kids have eaten homemade bread pretty much exclusively.

But, I start a new job tomorrow and something had to give.  So I bought a loaf of grocery store bread...and found this in Ellie's lunch bag when she got home from school today:  

The sad remains of a turkey-cheese sandwich.  As a form of protest, it's pretty effective.

Friday, March 13, 2015


She complains that feeding the cat is too hard, but she's always ready to help her sister with a bottle.

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Hate Mail

Ellie made me this sweet card while she was in "time-out" today.  It's my second favorite card ever.

Monday, March 9, 2015


Not only does Mira have TWO, but one of Ellie's is loose!  I can't handle that at all.

Last Week

Today is Monday.  The first day of my last week as a stay-at-home mom.  I thought about taking the kids out of school one day and doing something super special, but now I'm inclined just to make it the best "normal" week I can.  I want to focus on the things I'm going to miss, like giving Ellie a welcome home hug when she gets off the bus, and snuggling Mira all day long, but also the things I'm the daily struggle that is getting everyone in their jackets and into the car for the morning ride to school.  I'm trying to "be in the moment" and just let myself feel my feelings and remember that everything is going to be okay.  

On a lighter note, we went to P's birthday party this weekend, and played with Legos.  Gabe is now fully obsessed.

Friday, March 6, 2015

Family Portrait and a Life Update

Ellie drew this picture yesterday and I just adore it.  I love that I'm holding Mira, and that "Dabby" has the longest legs ever.  I love that she labeled herself "Ellie" but signed it "Love Eleanor..."  I love the sun, and the sky, and just the whole damned thing.  It's my new favorite family portrait ever.

And a quick general life update.  The whole job thing is moving forward.  We hired a (hopefully) fantastic nanny.  She'll start in the middle of March and I spend a few days training her before taking my first official commute in to the city.  Now that I know who's going to be taking care of the kids, I'm SLIGHTLY calmer about the whole thing.  I still wake up sometimes at 2am not at all sure if this is really happening, and if it really should be happening, but in general, I'm doing better. 

And you know this picture is going up in my cubicle.

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Gabey's Big Day

A huge thank you to Josh for taking photos!

Gabe sat here, quietly eating his cake, until all the other kids had gone back to playing, and the party staff was sweeping around him.  The boy loves his cake.

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Look Who's Sitting


Someone is turning four this week.  Four.  It's insane.  

It's a cliche for a reason.  He's growing up so quickly.  This year he became a big brother, and honestly, we weren't sure how that was going to go.  But Gabe is a trooper, and is turning into an awesome big brother.  He was already a pretty kick-ass little brother.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015


I said around New Years that things may be changing around here, and I guess I wasn't kidding.  I am going back to work full time, in the city.  This is super awesome and exciting and also completely terrifying and horrible.  We are searching for a nanny, I am full of anxiety and guilt, and some more anxiety on the side.  Essentially my paycheck will pay the nanny, which of course begs the question of WHY THE HELL DO IT?  But I have to remember to look at the big picture.  Me returning to work is ultimately the best thing for our family, and YES, it will be a huge adjustment, and YES it will be hard, and YES, there will be days (weeks?) where I hate it and think I've made a totally wrong choice, and YES, it still is the right thing for us.  And if it isn't?  I quit.  I'm so lucky to have the opportunity to make this choice, and I'm really struggling to feel positive about it.  Change is hard.  Uncertainty is hard.  Such is life.

So, in the midst of all this emotional turmoil, I've been splurging on my time with the kids.  Gabe and I have been on a lunch tour of Tarrytown.  He loves restaurants that serve macaroni and cheese.  Can't say I blame him.

And Ellie and I went to see Matilda on Broadway!  It was so great and we had a lovely day together.  We don't get much alone time, and I really loved being able to focus just on my incredibly grown up little girl.

Friday, February 6, 2015

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Eye Obssessed

I am currently obsessed with figuring out what color Mira's eyes are going to be.  Any guesses?  At six months we've got a blue outer ring, with brown around the pupil.  Will the brown keep going?  End up hazel?  Green?  Hot pink?

Monday, January 26, 2015

Summer Flashback

With a blizzard closing down on us (18-24 inches?!  say what?!) it seems a good a time as any to post a favorite picture from this summer.  Someone at Day Camp snapped this shot, and she made the brochure this year!  We're famous!

Can't you just feel the sunshine?

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Finally, Snow!


Friday, January 23, 2015

January Blues

We've got a bit of the January Blues around here.  The holidays are over, cold season is here, blah blah blah...  We did have a great time celebrating Brian's birthday last weekend.  Our closest friends met us at a local bowling alley with all the kids and we partied as much as a bunch of 40-year-olds can on a Saturday afternoon.  The Coburns came to visit too, so it was really a lovely weekend.  But now Brian, Mira, and I have a cold, and the kids don't want to get up in the morning for school, and I can't really blame them.  Spring, come soon!

Until then, I'll just keep trying unsuccessfully to take naps with Gabe and Sophie.  It may not be restful, but it's fun.

Friday, January 16, 2015

Rainbow Hearts

For a long time now Ellie has been obsessed with rainbows and hearts.  Now, we have rainbow-hearts.  It's awesome.

Friday, January 9, 2015

So Young...

Look what I stumbled across today.

This is from our rehearsal dinner...10 (100?) years ago.

Sunday, January 4, 2015

New Years Fortune

It's been New Year's for a couple days now, but tomorrow everyone goes back to work and it feels like the real kick-off to the year.  With lots of luck and hard work, I'm hoping 2015 will bring some pretty big changes around here.  I'm starting to put out feelers about going back to work, and considering really making a go of my photography. Both ideas are pretty damned terrifying. So last night's take-out Chinese fortune feels particularly appropriate:  "If you think you can do a thing or you think you can't do a thing, you're right."  Well, there you have it.  At least I'm always right.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Happy New Year!

Phew!  We made it through another year and another season of holiday madness.  Here's to 2015, may we find peace, happiness, and a full night's sleep.

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Bye Mommom! Bye Poppop!

And just like that...the grandparents are back on their way to sunny Florida.  Wish we were going with them!

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Mommom and Poppop

Brian's Folks, Visiting from Florida...

Saturday, December 27, 2014

Time Flies

Sheesh...when did my little girl become a teenager?
(The DocMcStuffins Headphones from Aunt Janis win Christmas/Hanukkah 2014.  She adores them.)

Friday, December 26, 2014

Christmas Smiles

It's the day after Christmas, and all through the house, not a creature was stirring, because we're all completed exhausted.  Merry Christmas, everyone!  It's the the holiday homestretch...can we make it?

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

The Last Night

Seriously, people...eight nights is a long time.  Happy Hanukkah!


Sunday, December 21, 2014

Ellie's First Nutcracker

Okay, so it technically wasn't her FIRST "Nutcracker," but I've decided that last year's "Max and Ruby in the Nutcracker" didn't really count.  So yesterday Ellie and I went to her first real, grown-up, not abridged or adulterated, ballet.  And she did great.  She enjoyed the first act more than the second, but who can blame her?  The first act is all party and plot, while the second is just dance for dance's sake.  Even I get frustrated with the second act.  (Ellie's comment when the Sugar Plum Fairy made her third entrance:  "Please don't tell me she's going to dance AGAIN."  Everyone's a critic.)

Friday, December 19, 2014

Night Four!



(If only it sounded as sweet as it looks.)


The problem with eight nights of Hanukkah is that there's no way my kids can behave well enough to deserve presents EIGHT DAYS IN A ROW.  (I'm just kidding, darlings, you're perfect.)

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Me and My Boy

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Holiday Wishes

The anniversary of Sandy Hook....the news from Pakistan today about the school massacre...  I don't normally talk "serious stuff" on this's all just family photos and amusing anecdotes.  But tonight, I struggle to maintain holiday enthusiasm amid near constant reminders of how tenuous it all is.  So I find joy in Gabe's relief at FINALLY getting a light-up, remote-control race car, and watching Ellie meticulously apply enough layers of glitter nail polish to preserve her fingertips through eternity.  I'll make cookies and latkes and make it all as perfect for my little family as I can, and I'll share cute pictures and silly kid stories like the the little Dutch boy holding back the dam. May you all find peace and joy this season, and may the world come to its senses.


Hey now, aren't we cute.  :)

Brian's Aunt Jan posted this to Facebook today.  It's from our visit in September, I think?  It's all of us, plus Brian's grandmother Doris, and his cousin Dan.    Could Ellie be wearing any more pink?  She's obsessed.

Quick! Find the baby!

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Cheese Dip

Ellie is VERY excited about any opportunity to make Velveetta Cheese Dip, so yesterday we had a couple people over, made latkes and cookies, and dipped much more than a reasonable amount of Tostitos in melted cheesy goodness.  Maintaining Holiday Enthusiasm!